Right now, I don't know what my next step in life is. I know what I don't really like where it is right now.
Lately these thoughts have been overwhelming me and causing me to sit in fear and stew over it all.
Then yesterday while I was sitting up in the canyon, I had sort of an epiphany. I realized that even though I don't know where I'm going or really what I'm doing in life, I still have to move forward. I can't just sit and expect things to happen. I have to make a decision and move forward. Eventually an opportunity or life path or something will make itself known and available. But until that happens I have to continue to do things. Something. Anything.
So I decided to apply for a job, at my current job, but one that is closer to what I want to do in life. I decided that I want to be more active in my photography, so I put in an application to be an iStock Photo contributor. I have also been wanting to be in better shape and be more toned, so I decided to start some of those 30 day challenges. And I'm moving forward day by day with those decisions.
I don't know where this is going to take me or how this is going to end, but I've made decisions. I've done something. I'm open to what the world has to bring.
I'm still unsure about life and what I'm "supposed" to be doing, but this is a lot better than sitting around and feeling sorry for myself.
Til next time!
-MJ
Oh and for those that have been thinking about doing the 30 day challenge things... Here are the three that I'm starting with... ya know if you want to work on this with me.. (I found them on Pinterest. You can follow me if you want... Search for Megan Jolley.. I have the same pic as my blog profile.)
The other day, I talked about how I have become rather fond of hiking and going up into the canyon. Well it is true. Oh so very true. I think that it might become somewhat of a drug for me.
I don't think that I can correctly put it into words right now. (I just got home from a long day of work... aka... I'm totally brain dead at this time..) BUT you are in luck!
You see I went up into the canyon this morning and I brought a journal with me and I was able to rather eloquently put into words how being up in the mountains make me feel. So I thought I'd share that with you, as well as some pictures that I took today!
Here we go...
May 22, 2014
Sometimes life gets to be too much. the complexity of jobs, resumes, loans, cars, college, social media, and even just my own thoughts bog up my life in a way that is too much for me to handle. When the pressure builds, I escape to the only place that has the ability to bring me peace.
Here I sit on the shore of Sliver Lake way up in the canyon, looking over the rippling, blue water and it all goes away. The wind rattles the aspen leaves and seems to drag all of that pressure and complexity and stress right out of me. This is the one place that I can just be.
Surrounded by the mountains, the towering walls of history and life, I am finally able to breathe, truly breathe. My confused, anxiety laden, self-doubting thoughts are silenced. The dramas of work and the thoughts of others don't matter and become practically non-existent. The fears of my unknown future that normally keep me awake for hours at night, seem so small and insignificant.
For the few hours that I am able to spend out in the canyon, I am able to put the world behind me. I am able to live in the moment, take one step, one breathe at a time. For a few hours, I am whole.
That's my BFF.. just btw..
Go out into the mountains if you have the opportunity!
Til next time!
-MJ
Friday, May 30th. Next Friday. 10 days from now.
That is the day of my brother's graduation. My little man isn't so little anymore.
My brother is pretty much my best friend. He always knows how to make me laugh. We are crazy and goofy and completely ridiculous together. I can be 100% me around him. He is so smart and funny and kind and loving. He has the biggest heart. He is so talented and has accomplished so much these last few years. He has so much to look forward to with this next step of his life; college, education, friends, jobs, opportunities, etc. I am soo excited for him! I can't wait to watch him excel and soar into success! I love him so much, he has no idea. I don't know what I would do without him. No joke!
A few weeks ago I had the privilege of taking his senior pictures. I took almost 300 photos. I edited a little under 100 and I've somehow cut it down to just under 30 of my favorite photos to put on here. It was a process. HAHA!
Blogger world, I present to you Bryson Class of 2014!
