Sunday, June 15, 2014

Right now isn't forever...

So. I have to be perfectly honest. It's the only way to stay sane now a'days. 

My life isn't going how I was hoping it would. I had this idea during my last semester of college that I was going to graduate, get my dream job right away, meet a special someone (or the thing with the guy I was "dating" would have gone better), I would be getting ready to move out, and things would just being going up for me.


I am still working at a retail, hardware store as a cashier.

I haven't found my dream job, let alone anything that would be considered a career.

I have been turned down for a lot of jobs actually. Not enough experience.
I am so ridiculously single. 

Like not even a slight inkling of anything in the thought of romance. (I still haven't heard anything from that guy that I was dating that went back to Canada. I unfriended him on Facebook. I was angry.)

I am not close to moving out on my own. (I am ridiculously poor.)

I am not in fantastic shape. (I may have stopped the 30 day challenges I was doing because of that bug bite put me out for a few days and then I just didn't start back up... Oops.)

Now I have been kind of down about the fact that my life isn't going in the super fantastical, movie like life. I have written about it a few times on here I think, which make me look like a total downer and makes me feel kind of like a total loser.

I have been doing a lot of deep thinking recently. About what I want in life. What I should do next. And dealing with my feelings of not being where I had planned and dreamed.

While I was doing all of this thinking, I came across a saying. It goes something along the lines of, "If God says no, it is because He has an even better yes waiting for you down the road."

A lot of people think that such a saying is something that should be considered cheesy or just wishful thinking. I don't find that to be the case.

I have come to the realization that I do know what I want in life. I do know where I want to end up. I know the direction that I am going. It is just going to take some time to get there. I have to be patient and wait for my "yes." I find hope in that saying.

There is hope that there is someone watching over me and knows what is best for me. There is hope that there is something right for me that will take me to what I desire. There is hope that there is something better yet to come. There is hope in the idea that even when life isn't going your way and knocks you down and around, if you are willing to get up and walk forward in life, you will come to your "yes." 

There is nothing wrong with having hope for the future.

That is my plan for my future: hope. I know what I want. I know where I am heading. I just have to keep moving forward. I just have to keep trying. I just have to have hope. My "yes" is there. For all I know it could be tomorrow. But I will never know if I give up because I keep hearing "no."

Yes my life isn't where I want it to be right now, but right now isn't forever. 

Til next time.


Tuesday, June 3, 2014

There's my day...

It's 11. I'm tired.

I kind of wore myself out today.

I don't know what got into me, but I was Miss Super Productive today. Like the Energy Bunny...on crack. HA!

I woke up at 5 am and went hiking for a few hours. Then I came home and cleaned. I swept. I vacuumed. I dusted. I purged my room of all the loose papers and things that I really don't use (TWO big black trash bags worth of stuff!!!). I reorganized all of my shelves and drawers. I rearranged my bulletin boards and put new things on them. I decided that I didn't like the layout of my room, so I moved all of my furniture. Stood back. Realized I liked it better the way it was before. So I moved it all back. I ate lunch. I took my brother to Jiffy Lube (it was his first time and he didn't know what he was doing. I showed him the ropes.) I ate dinner. Then I went to Cabela's and bought myself something.... :)

I bought myself...


Aren't they so cool?!?!?!

They are officially the most I have ever paid for a pair of shoes...and probably the most I will EVER pay for shoes EVER! But I am really getting into the whole hiking thing and my poor converse just aren't  cutting it...

I am soooo excited for all the adventures that I will have in these shoes... Starting tomorrow!!! (I'm dragging my sister and her friend along with me so I can break these bad boys in ASAP!!)

There's my day... I'm going to sleep now.

Goodnight to any of those that are reading this!

Til next time!



P.S. I have an interview tomorrow!!! Fingers crossed!! :) I'd appreciate any prayers and/or good vibes my way!

So there's that...

This last week has been rather interesting.. Quite crazy to be honest.

First. I DO NOT get along with bugs. Particularly the kind that bite you. Like mosquitoes. Or spiders.

You see, I am more allergic to these little beasties than most people are. I completely swell up like a balloon! Huge, red, hot welt that itches WAY more that you thought could ever be possible. It is truly the worst thing on the entire planet. Well..on Tuesday, I had the horrid misfortune of running into one of the awful little creatures. 

I was hanging out with my family in the front of our house; the weather is getting quite wonderful, and why stay inside when you can be out in the open air? While enjoying the warm breeze and the laughter and conversation of my loved ones, I took notice that I was starting to frequently scratch the same place on my leg. I look down and lo and behold, I find a small red bump on my ankle. Awesome. I proceed to go inside and, with every fiber of my being, do everything I can to not scratch the infected area.

The next day, it is as good as is expected. It has become a larger, swollen, red bump that ITCHES. I do my best to ignore it and continue on with my day to work. By the end of my shift, my leg is noticeably swollen and red and really... gross. It feels like it is on fire as well... My coworkers are all fairly worried, but I assure them that it is simply a mosquito bite and that it is not something that should be worried over. Still, my boss allows me to sit instead of stand and provides an icepack to help with the swelling and itching. 

The following day...It's not looking so good. My ankle and foot are visible]y swollen. The bite area is really hot. My joints are rather stiff and uncomfortable. Still, I hold my ground in the idea that it is a mere mosquito bite and that all is well. Then I get to work and everyone checks up on me. All have the same reaction: "You NEED to get to a doctor!" I shoot down the first. Then a few hours into my shift, I realize that the heat of the bite is traveling..half way up my shin; my stubborn nature starts to melt at this point. Finally I decided that I am in need of some medical attention. I ask to take a long lunch and head over to the local clinic.

The doctor comes in, looks at my leg for two seconds, and says, "Yup. That's a spider bite." Awesome. I am given some SUPER nasty medicine to stop the allergic reaction, antibiotics to combat the dirty spider mouth germs, cream to calm the itching, and a wrap from foot to knee to stop the swelling. By that night, things were looking much better! And now today, a week later, things are pretty much healed! I still have a mark on my leg and it is still a tad bit sensitive, but the situation has been neutralized!

Now a good story like that can't go without pictures!!

 Here we have my super sexy leg wrap with my trusty bag of peas alongside a picture of my leg taken about an hour before I went to the doctor.

Here is a quick comparison between an hour before the doctor on the left (ya know if you couldn't tell..) and that night after going to the doctor. Yay for modern medicine!!

So there's that.

Second. My lil bro graduated. Weird. It made me feel rather old and nostalgic... But that is a whole other story for another day!

Hmmmm... oh ya! I also took a pretty rad pic of myself! That is really lame to say... wow... HA! But hey! Nothing makes you feel better than getting a pic of you that actually looks good! So ya.. here it is...

Not too bad right?! I just love it when my hair cooperates! #curlyhairproblems

Well... That is all! ...for now.

Til next time!